The definition of a phobia is an irrational fear of a particular object, event or situation
The main symptom of this disorder is excessive and unreasonable desire to avoid the feared stimulus
So to fear love is to avoid it
Which would explain why its so hard for me to get close to you
See it aint no lie that I'm diggin' everything from your thick thighs to the look you get in your eyes when you see me
Though I can't help but wonder what it is that you see in me
Especially since i ain't treated you the best
Or even the way you should be
Shit "you" ain't just one female thats the worse part
And I ain't trying to brag but I done broke a lot of hearts in turn for mine being split in two
So I googled my problem, because I googled everything
And apperantly phobia are derived for trama
So when exactly did my drama become damaging?
Could it be that I'm just no good, possibly
Maybe even possibly
But I wasnt always like this so I'm trying to figure out when I went from a sucker for love to struggling with commradery
They say when you lose something that you should retrace your steps
That's what I did reluctanly but it led me to where this began
My mother is the best woman I know
Raised me on her own and from time-time she'd have a man around
But he wouldn't last long
My grandmother just as strong, she was divorced though
Said she never needed a man that they wasn't no good
So I just figured it was something I couldn't avoid, it was in my genes
Like an animalistic thing
Fast foward to you my first and only love, at least I think it was......
To say that call was shocking would be an understatement
Cuz i had already etched us in as the only two that would make it
By the time you talked to me you were already gone
you probably revel in the fact that I can't move on
Stuck in love's limbo carrying on with these bimbos cuz I know it wont last
And when i do come across a good girl i dont know how to act
Call myself wildin' out before she do so I don't lose
Found out after the fact that she was truly down
But now, she can't even stand to be around me
Told me that I better tighten up cuz the devil is surrounding me
That made me step back
See I always thought I was slightly off track
But she saw something in me that was evil
lI tried to fix that then get right back, but I couldn't though
Everytime she'd touch me lovingly I'd back away
Wouldn't answer her calls and text tell her I been busy the past few days
All she wanted to do was hold me down but that aint even enough for me to stay
Shit I be trying to get gone before I need her cause after that it all changes
And I just cant lose control, not again
So sorry I can't grow witcha, i got philiphobia
The fear of being in Love
